dreaming.

Early birds, rising before the sun. grounded. talked lots of good bits. hard to watch you go.

went running today. hour+.5hour=forever. was so good for my soul to escape my brain.
i felt free. i felt strong. i felt independent of insecurities
ran right by the your holy hill. looked for you even, but you were hiding.

As i was running, i was listening to One Republic's, "Come Home" and it was making me contemplate God and really ask forgiveness for how unfaithful i have been. i have been hiding for fear that i am not worthy enough, which is true, but i always forget that God takes us as we are.
even if we are broken and tired, all he wants us to do is come home. just to come, just to be, just try.

today was a lot of just trying to find words. flipping pages. shitty knitty. eating.
sleep finds me, weary-eyed, stumbling towards a lifelong friend, who i have no talked to in awhile.
thankyou.
post.script.
excitement about the north. coming quickly.