Wednesday, was so hard. exhausting. empowering. i could not handle it all.
Nonetheless i had coffee with a dearfriend, or whatever.

oh, how i wish for light.
oh, i wish to be held by you God.
i have no idea where I am. should be. how to be.
it's hard, but i cannot think of anywhere i would rather be.

i need to find you again, in whatever that looks like. maybe something new.

oh bloggy, you are too bittersweet.

"4.This is what the Lord says to me:
'As a lion growls,
a great lion over his prey-
and though a whole band of shepherds is called together against him,
he is not frightened by their shouts or disturbed by their clamour-
so the Lord Almighty will come down to do battle on Mount Zion and on its heights.'" isiah 31:4

i feel like that:
wherever i am at
whoever i become
whatever i think-
God will protect my heart, if i allow myself to be.

i think the trick is to find out how to do the deuce. donotletmebeasheep!