41 weeks.

[The day long, all i saw were people. not a lot of alone time in any way.

I saw people that used to mean the world to me, that do not anymore.

I saw people that looked like others, that do still mean the world to me.

I saw people that I do not even know.

people are important whether you know them or not.

people walk around with beating hearts. souls. bleeding unspoken and spoken feelings.]

This one thing that I have been chipping away at: Mary and Jesus' pregnancy.

Last night I was blown away at what i have been focusing on at Christmas time...only at Christmas time: Jesus' birth. Why not focus on Mary?

Nobody ever focuses on Mary's pregnancy. just the birth of our Saviour.

What about the one that had to wait for him? the one that endured nine months of waiting...for him...for us?

Focusing so much on the birth, and not the waiting, poses an interesting view of the human psyche.

I feel that society always focuses on the end to a means, never the means to an end. the best example being Mary and Jesus...their nine month journey together.

Everyone focuses on the actual birth, not the pregnancy.

one does not exist without the other. the pregnancy cannot be valuable without this end, but the birth cannot happen without waiting first.

people forget how beautiful, yet long, nine months can be. this is the time when things are prepared for this babe that is coming. the time when the most amazing process a human is

capable of: the growth from one cell to a functioning human. the simple, but heavy, act of loving and nurturing another human more than yourself is when this happens. this time is for realizing that someone is about to be so much more important than you.

waiting is essential.for things to become, you have to wait.

for relationships to materialize and flourish, you have to work at it. years.

for people to be born. nine months must be lived.

for a butterfly to arrive, waiting. bread to rise...waiting. wounds to heal-waiting.

{time is so precious. sodamnprecious.}

So waiting is important.

so i think that Mary pregnancy is just as important as the birth.

So i need to think about this more.

enjoy this.